A Little Known Fact About Me,
I am notorious for talking to myself. At least the people in my head know that i am notorious for talking to myself. Come on ya'll whose with me? Nobody?
When i was a kid and would come home late, i knew i was walking toward a whuppin'. On the path home during those days the wind would slice against my skin a little colder, the sky could never quite find its truest blue, and i would find myself carrying on a conversation with my imaginary version of my mother. It went a little deeper than what you would think, i would actually speak both roles (hers and mine) out loud. I made her cunning. Able to predict my every rebuttal. Before i realized it im doing spoken word on the side of the road. Now this was the days before cell phones were so small they can fit in the change poket of your jeans. So me speaking to myself on the side of the rode definetly made an impression to onlookers.
But i can honestly say, that's where i honed my skills, i rapped, sang, beatbox, made up stories, and argued with my imaginary mother, emotions and all, walking Ventura Road, Oxnard Blvd, Channel Islands, Saviors rd, everywhere. I worked out problems, ran away from home temporarily (long story), everything. From elementary till my senior year, 80% of where i wanted to go i walked, for hours at a time i would walk, and because of that and who i became you are reading this now. I thank you for that.
I'm in San Diego now. I drive most places. really have no one to answer to and no reason to make up conversations and stories except to share with you so that i don't lose that child in me. Sometimes now, i make up conversations on what i would tell the teenage me if i could. If i found a Delorean and could shoot back in time, what would that conversation be like. What would i ask 50 year old Gill if i could go in the opposite direction? I have no regrets. Life has been good to me. But i would have some interesting things to say to 12 year old Gill.
Here is your challenge if you choose to accept it:
Set your alarm for 10 minutes. close your eyes and have an imaginary conversation with the the 2021 version of you. Let him or her speak frankly to you. I know a lot of people give you advice. It's on talk shows, internet, movies. Just this once, listen to what you have to tell yourself. I think we have always had the answers. Often we are just afraid to listen.
these challenges come strictly from spirit. I have no clue as to what im going to write when i sit down monday nights. I didn't even know that i was going to start offering weekly challenges. i just know this is for you. Don't ask me how i know, i just do. So do it! ha ha!
On Another Note:
Its a month of love, black history, and my birthday. Is there no greater month than feburary? Because of that, im going to include a very sexy/romantic song for you. It's off my album Flawed American Male. It's called "I Can't Imagine" and its featuring none other than the legendary Kevin Sandbloom (pictured above). I feel so blessed to have worked with him. He is simply amazing and has a voice like no other. This is the perfect gift to give to someone you love. And since i love you all equally, i present this to you. Enjoy! Let me know what you think!
Until Then,
Be Now
Gill
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