Expected: 500 Days of Summer

“Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.” ~Paulo Coelho ~ ELEVEN MINUTES

Love, today is supposed to be full of it. How's that working out for you? Has traffic flowed smoothly for you? Everyone stopped texting on the road and let you in their lane? Did your eye stay away from that nasty office clock telling you that the day is far from over? It doesn't matter if what you thought Valentine’s Day should have been didn't quite work out. We are creatures of expectations. Learned not inherited. There is a beautiful scene in the movie 500 Days of Summer (I recommend it) where the main character is invited to a party by his ex (awkward). They’re supposed to be friends now. Well the screen is cut in half and on one side is what he expected/hoped would happen and the other what actually happened. So ultimately it was the same scene played two different ways at the same time. How many times has the movie in your head rang false?

In my action/romance/drama/comedy life that I made up in my own head I’m already a famous musician/actor with a wife, kids, dog, and a talking parakeet that only says hilarious things for comic relief or tells me when someone talks behind my back. But the reality of my situation here, now, is beautiful, a beautiful struggle. I can’t wait to tell my kids about the mixtapes my girl and I exchanged this valentines that cost us nothing but time. Wait, I’m projecting into the future again. Man, this is hard. What I meant to say is I’m enjoying now. And although I have big big dreams for the future that includes all of you, I look around and there are a lot of amazing and talented people around me. In you I have found love that has always been inside me. So to all of you reading this and to all that has touched my life I say to you, Happy Valentine’s Day. I’d get you all a card, but instead you truly have my heart.

You’re Challenge For The Week:
Tomorrow (or today), see how present you can be for one whole day. Anytime you start to feel like someone or something isn’t living up to what you “expected” imagine the closing credits rolling on that film and that you are finished with that movie. Let it go, laugh about it, shrug your shoulders and let what was was and what is is. I often try to notice my breathing, since it the source of everything and the most present thing about you. Try it for a day and get back to me. I’m interested in hearing the results. Believe me when I say I slip into expectation mode all the time. So I’m not going to say it’s going to be easy. But they say if you can get even a small % better day by day, eventually you will be better than you ever knew.

On A Personal Note:
Playing a lot of shows this month, make sure you check my calendar; I’m all over the place. And it’s my birthday. And true to form I am throwing another BBQ/Party. If you know me well and didn’t get an invite, holla at your boy, I may not have all of your information. You do not want to miss this one.
The book is coming along quite well. Jerrica and I are so wonderfully different in our style and approach but we work so well together. I think what we put together is going to be unlike anything you have seen. We were just getting excited putting together the first draft! We hoping for a May release but keep your fingers crossed. And then onto the MixTape for DJ Gill Sotu…the people have asked, and I will deliver, eventually. Oh and I’m going to be involved in a huge project with the owner of my record label Cixi Digital Records. It’s going to be a game changer. No, seriously. I’m keeping this one close to the vest cause I don’t want someone stealing this idea. 2011 is our year ya’ll.


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UNTITLED
He yelled
She cried
He laughed
And she danced
He gambled
She starved
He leaves
She waits
He slept
And she took a breath
Be careful
when you pick your gods
They may just turn out
to be men